Late night blog post :)

#1
This holiday sucks for me.
This Saturday to next Wednesday, bro going Penang with his friends.
Yeah, mom agreed to it.
HOW FUN.
Then next Thusday to Sunday mom going Penang.
HOW FUN.
For all the trips everybody is going,
I'm freaking stuck at home.
That's not the worst part,
I DON'T GET TO FREAKING GO OUT. HOW FUN.
I ask mommy that day if I could go out for movies with my friends,
Guess what she said?
"You don't need to ask unless you are personally asking for a lecture."
Hmm.
So that just means...
Everyone gets to go out,
but me.
Great, plain great.
How unfair is this, try being in my shoes mom.
ALL.
EACH AND EVERY ONE, of my friends get to go out.
but me.
Should wet my pillow over this matter? or accept the fact?
accept the fact that i'll forever be prisoned in my own home?
sucks to be me.

#2
Did something I'm not sure if its right today.
Everybody confessed about our feelings.
Well not everybody but some.
Others just saw but kept quiet.
I definitely stated my point.
I know its better to stay out of it, but he deserves to know how he has treated me.
Talking to people rudely and offensively?
I was just clarifying things.
plus I wasn't even asking you..
I'd usually let things like this go, but sorry,
Cause I had a bad day too!
Doesn't mean if you had a bad day,
it gives you the rights to release your anger on other people!
So everybody gave their opinion.
I did not state anything about you, because I respect you.
But I hope by seeing everyones opinion you'd get to your senses.
I am not doing a good job myself, that I know.
but this is where I learn from my mistakes.
Whereas for you.
You are not going a good job yourself and that doesn't give you any rights to yell at people as you wish.

#3
I'm tired of this.
Confused with my own feelings.
I have never wanted this, so please stop making things hard for me.
You don't give me butterflies as much as you give me wounds.
Whats worst is I have to stitch them my own.
You aren't the same person I used to know.
I don't feel comfortable around you anymore.
Sorry if it was my fault.
But somehow I blame you.
Selfish? yeah. I always have been.
I gladly give you up.
That way, at least I can still hope we'd return to the 'us' we used to be.


Goodnights world.
It's been a rough day.
xx