Saturday, April 7, 2012
recalling memories.
Wiping of the last droplet of tears, and now i'm ready to blog.
We've broke up for nearly a year now.
people say,
"it takes the same amount of time you used love that person, to forget that person."
Well, i guess i still have a long way to go..
Truthfully, I still dream of you from time to time.
I still cry for you like mad, from time to time.
I still think of you, from time to time.
I know how hard is it for you going through all these.
Breaking up because of something we both don't want? something we cannot fight our rights.
Trust me, I suffer as much pain as you do.
And me, having to ignore you is twice as worst.
Everytime you talk to me, how much i want to reply you, but i cant.
I cannot.
I wont.
I cant go back the way we were.
Its not right.
My mom wants a perfect life for me, i'm sure you know it too.
Eventho my life is already fucked up enough.
I don't hate you, and I will always forgive you.
Stop blaming yourself kay?
I have always pretended to hate you, so you wont talk to me.
As much as I want to forget you so I dont feel so much pain, I cant.
Do you remember?
Those times when you told me i've changed?
We quarreled over stupid things, broke up and got back together again?
I think in our relationship, we broke up more times than anything else?
That was because we forgived each other,
We were able to accept each other for who we are, even if we changed.
We were different.
All those little things that you do made it so special to me.
I cant just forget you.
Somehow, you're engraved into me..
I'm sure you've moved on, just as i am.
Rebounds or not.
but just so you know, you will always be in my heart.
Honestly, so many guys i've dated after you.
none of them passed 1 month, not even 3 weeks!
and none of them can make my heart desperately want them, only you.
If you gave me a chance to be with you again now,
I'll still deny.
I want you to understand that.
If you are reading this, please smile. Dont cry.
Cause maybe we'll be together again in our next lives?
Because I know, you'd do anything for me.
28.3.09 :')
-watch The Vow.
