Monday, March 19, 2012
If only...
Slept at 2am last night, woke up at 6am this morning.
Really tired today, having tuition at 4pm later.
Skipped recess.
Had mcd for lunch.
I knew a lot of things that I shouldn't know today.
Things about me, and about people around me.
Things that my brain cannot really accept.
Whats worst is its a secret that I cannot tell.
My shoulders are getting heavier by the second.
Dear you.
If that is what you feel, i'd rather you tell me yourself.
Don't just leave me without an explanation.
Try being in my shoes, how would you feel?
It's obviously your ego problem.
or maybe a slight possibility that you are really really scared.
But if that is so, no offence lah, you damn pussy -.-
Whether its your first time or not, you're a guy, man up!
A girl likes you, talk to her!
Whether you like her or not! Talking to her won't kill you, will it?!
Be a gentleman!
Haven't you thought how you would feel if you like a girl and she just avoids you?
Leaving you thinking whats wrong without any explanation?
It feels like crap being me now.
Confused. Unsure. Insecure. Lost.
Sigh.
What does it all mean?
What does it mean when you told Kenneth not to tell me all these things..?
Does it mean you care that i might feel sad?
I'm sorry. Sorry for liking you.
Me liking you made your classmates make fun of you.
Me liking you made you scared of me.
Me liking you bring nothing good in your life.
Me liking you doesn't benefit you.
But I don't regret liking you.
I don't ask for much. I know we will not be together.
All I ask for is your time.
To be friends with you, will be the greatest gift I could ever wish for.
Better still now.
You knowing how I feel now would be the greatest gift I could ever ask for.
If you really do find out,
By then, whether you talk to me or not.
It doesn't matter anymore.
What matters is that you understand, how I actually feel.
And maybe you wont treat every other girls that like you,
the same way you treated me.
:)
Heart to heart talk with Kenneth and Nurin today.
thanks guys ♥
