Thursday, May 19, 2011
to a few very special friends.
to you :
maybe because i cant afford to lose you to him.
not that i can control you, cause its your life,
its just you've gone over the limit.
and yes its not my problem but,
maybe because you're my best friend,
and maybe because i love you. (as my best friend)
you've always been a stubborn girl, just like me.
i've known you for such a long time.
but as time passes, things change. you've changed.
you have him and i'm happy for you.
maybe a little jealous from time to time, but i've always supported you.
i've been through what you're going through and i don't want you to make the same mistake i did.
but its okay if you don't wanna listen.
its okay if you wanna answer back. (although i get really pissed.)
but if you really carry on like this?
come on' its exam week.
me and ducky also worry about you, but you just don't see it.
sometimes you think really childishly.
not in a joking way, but by answering what im trying to tell you.
i really just want to SHOVE IT in your face, but i know you will still say the same things.
and even worse, our friendship may break down.
so thats why i walked away..
sometimes i just dont want to argue back with you, i just nod.
i dont really want to tell you this maybe because i know you will think im overreacting.
but it effects my life.
i want you to understand, but *SIGH. you're just too stubborn to understand. just like me.
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to X.J.
i know its hard. i know you need space. i know you get angry.
cause i feel the same too.
but she cares for you. she worries for you.
i know sometimes you just wanna scream at her face saying "i don't need you to worry"
but come to think of it, you would regret.
REGRET that you don't have her worries by your side.
you'd regret, you'd miss her so much.
i know you still love her.
you wont just forget her in a few days..
it takes the amount of time you took to date her, to forget her.
don't force yourself to hate her.
Forgive her, and Forget what has passed.
love her for worrying. love her even more for crying.
she dint eat several meals, (duno she on diet or what la :P)
just kidding. i though she crazy, but she said she cannot eat.
she miss you so much, she can barely do her exam.
she tells me all the fun she had with you.
she said her house 'open house' soon, she wish you could overnight at her house.
but she said she know's you would follow your sister home.
she said she remembered you promise her you would follow her to Redang.
but with this condition, it wont happen.
she said she love you so much.
even i cant express the love she has for you.
she cried on the phone.
she tell me about how cute you are.
she even tells me about your hair.
"it bounces when the wind blow"
wtcrap right?
but seriously,
i've never seen her so depressed. she has always been so jolly in my mind.
Please consider being her boyfriend again.
i don't force you. just consider.
don't make a decision just like that, think about it first.
even if she gave you time, would you consider being her boyfriend again?
she said she could wait, but she cant wait forever.
she loves you and you love her, don't deny it.
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to E.Y. (soh poh)
don't so sad le okay?
i know i cant help you, and i feel very very sad for you also.
i want you to know im always here for you :)
don't give up on him, don't give up on love.
i understand how you feel.
don't cry until eye's bengak go hospital!
if want to cry, must drink allot water! later body not enough water x)
must eat! later pengsan!
anything, can call me or text me de :)
my phone always available. unless no battery hor.
love you larhx! don't sad le!
JIA YOU!
you can do it!
Gambateh! :)) ♥ ♥ ♥
